In 2008 I started a flower farm. I had big plans, it was going to be great. I decided during that first, very difficult year that I should be keeping a journal. Important things were happening and I should not forget them. And in every year since then I have thought the same thing. But eventually these would-be journals just turned into notebooks full of to do lists and scribbled notes to myself. In the winter I go back and look at these notebooks in search of anything useful. I find bits and pieces but I always wish that there was more. I remember in those first three years that life was frantic. Still working full time for part of it while trying to start a business and running into one road block after another. I just didn’t understand how it was going to work but I knew that it had to. This had to work. But it didn’t. So I changed my vision and put in many more frantic hours. And now, almost exactly five years after I applied for my tax number and bought my domain name, I finally feel like everything is going to be OK. My business is on the edge of big changes and again I feel like these are important parts of my life so I should not forget them. I am hoping that the added responsibility of knowing that someone might be reading this will give me the motivation to keep up with it. This is the year we buy a farm and start over. I have got big plans. It is going to be great.